Beauty Body

Body insecurities & doing something about them

June 23, 2017
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I hate my legs. I know you’re not supposed to say negative things about yourself, your body or should embrace it for the fact it carries you and is overall healthy. Which I do, but at the same time – as I think is pretty normal – I have some areas I am insecure about. My legs would be number one – some reasons behind this are unavoidable and others I can do something about. So today I’m going to talk a bit about the reasons I hate my legs and hopefully, my plan to try and tackle this and get feeling more positive about my pins.

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I’m not very tall, 5ft3 – which means that even with the best will in the world my legs are never going to be of Victoria’s Secret proportions. I have what I’d describe as ‘stocky’ legs – they’ve always been pretty strong with my thighs never being of the ‘slender’ variety. Not that slim legs are the key to good legs. To be honest, having curvy legs has in the past been something I’ve always liked about them. Not just my thighs but also my calves. It means skinny jeans or any type of knee-high or above boots were a challenge to find a fit. But that’s easy enough to deal with, I can cope with that – that’s not my biggest insecurity around my legs. Sure, I’d love them to be slimmer or more toned but my biggest insecurity is something else that I haven’t talked about on the blog before.

The reason I’ve never talked about it to be totally honest is that it’s a bit embarrassing. Which is silly really, as it’s not even something I can do anything about through diet or exercise- the cause is something that’s a bit of a mystery. Most likely genetic in some way, but with no obvious source or cause. The usual lifestyle factors haven’t been the explanation for me. Before I go into the background and lifestyle factors I should probably tell you what my biggest insecurity around my legs is. It’s Varicose Veins. I know, it really is all glamour in the beauty blogging world. For every girl displaying their perfect pins on Instagram, there’s me hoping they don’t show or hiding them away.

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What is a Varicose Vein?

Put simply, it’s a vein in your leg (though can be elsewhere, but leg is the most common place) that is swollen and shows closer to the skin than it should. Giving a blue-purple, swollen appearance and creating a bumpy effect on the skin where it protrudes.

I have these on both of my legs. On my left leg is the ‘worst’ or most prominent – the one that bothers me the most – is on the inside of my leg above the knee. Β On my right leg there’s one that’s visible in colouring but hasn’t gone so far as creating the bumpy appearance.

It’s something I’ve been very insecure about for a long time. I’ve looked into the causes and seen my GP about trying to do something about it. The causes – as I mentioned above – don’t apply to me. It’s usually related to pregnancy, being overweight (sure, I’d like to lose a few pounds but not so much so that I would fall into this category) or spending a lot of time on your feet. None of which apply to me and can’t be the cause. So why it’s happened to me, I don’t know.

I should probably mention here that there’s more than just the physical issue of Varicose Veins. There’s also a lot of discomfort, heavy legs if I do have a long day on my feet. Or itching around the vein – this one does baffle me – but is probably the one that irritates me the most.

I know this is turning into a long winded explanation. But as it’s not something I’ve mentioned in the past I wanted to try and put into context and give a bit of understanding that Varicose Veins isn’t just something that happens when you’re older and how it feels to have them. I’m not going to say I ‘never’ get my legs out because that’s not true. It very much used to be, but as I’ve gotten a bit older there’s been times when I’ve just put comfort ahead of looking good. But it is a big consideration when it comes to choosing what to wear. You won’t find me in a short dress that exposes them (not without tights) jeans or trousers are usually my friend. Which has made heatwave dressing a challenge!

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Varicose Vein Removal – The Private Clinic

But after years of hiding away and feeling insecure, I’m very excited (and a bit nervous) to be taking a big step in dealing with them next week. Next week I’m having a procedure with The Private Clinic Harley Street to remove the veins and hopefully give me a confidence boost in the process.

I’ll of course be doing a post after the procedure to tell you all about the process, any pain or discomfort, the recovery time and of course the whole ‘before and after’ pictures. I was actually going to show a photo that shows just how visible they are as an example of the ‘before’ in action. But I’m going to wait and share post-procedure so I get the full ‘before and after’.

I’ve already been to have my initial consultation and met with the doctor who immediately made me feel at ease. Explaining that it’s a fairly simple and quick operation. It’s walk-in, walk-out so minimal drama around it. Β Which is good, I am of course nervous – as I think is normal having any sort of medical treatment really. But overall I’m really excited. I know I’m in great hands with The Private Clinic who have a long history of treating varicose veins.

If you have any questions about Varicose Veins, the treatment or anything else please do let me know. It’s something I’m more than happy to talk more about – I sort of wish I had talked about it before, but then when I didn’t have any ‘cure’ or solution I had nothing really to add rather than how much they bothered me! But the good news being that I’ve found a way to move forward and hope to have a solution.

Varicose Vein consultation & treatment provided by The Private Clinic for review.

 

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8 Comments

  • Reply Kate June 23, 2017 at 11:26 am

    Great post Jen! I also have the beginnings of one and it’s definitely something that people shy away from talking about. Bravo to you! xx

    • Reply Jen June 26, 2017 at 3:01 pm

      Thanks love! Can’t wait to get it done – fingers crossed wont be wearing compression tights all Summer!

  • Reply Jane June 23, 2017 at 11:35 am

    Another great post Jen, facing up to our insecurities and dealing with them is often quite daunting and we tend to just keep quiet and hide them away. Good luck with the procedure, I hope it all goes well for you.

    • Reply Jen June 26, 2017 at 3:01 pm

      Thank you, really appreciate that. It sometimes seems a bit awkward to talk about having a treatment to deal with something that seems like not a big deal but I’m so excited (and a bit nervous) to get it done!

  • Reply Lyn P June 23, 2017 at 12:04 pm

    Great, Jen, for tackling a condition that so many women, and men, suffer from.

    I’ve had varicose veins for 60 years, my mother had them. Probably having 3 children didn’t help. In the dim and distant past had injections which worked for some time.

    I wear M&S support tights, started on light, now on medium and always buy a larger size. Strange as it may seem I’ve never felt hot when wearing them in the recent heat wave.

    Now got varicose eczema and had “dandruff” legs. After trying many things I’m now an Aveeno moisturising cream babe. Recommended this cream to many people, also use it on my arms and feet.

    Before got varicose eczema used herbfarmacy Horse Chestnut Balm on the veins, it works

    Look forward to your “after” post

    • Reply Jen June 26, 2017 at 2:59 pm

      SO good to get comments and recommendations – thank you! I absolutely swear by Aveeno – I love it for my skin when it feels sensitive and dry. I’m really hoping the treatment fixes it. I need to check out this Horse Chestnut Balm too. Thank you!

  • Reply Shirley August 4, 2017 at 5:34 am

    How did your treatment go?

    • Reply Jen August 6, 2017 at 4:22 am

      It went well, thank you for asking! I’ll be doing a full write up once all totally healed and can do the full ‘after’.

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